eLx ver.3

2004-08-14T16:18:00.000-07:00

a return to the past

OH MY FAWKIIINGGGG GAWWWD!!!!!!!!
our new frige was supposed to come in monday last week... the company fucked up and we dont get our frige till today... the lowes truck finally comes in. but guess what! the fuckin frige is TORE up! omFG! and my mom didnt even raise her voice. that pisses me off! it took us 2 n half weeks to get a tore up frige... then to wait another fuckin week for a replacement! wtf! mom shiet.... its tore tore tore tore..... fuckin it was already theyre bad for the delay and to get a scratched up frige after that fuckin wait n jus to wait again for a new one! WHAT THE FUCK MOM! out of all the people i had the most angriest voice... and a "sos" replacement is still gonna take a week. OMG.... that shit should be here monday at the latest for theyre bad! fuuuuuucccck... im soo heated... im glad tonite will be the nite GUARRRRRR... we all deserve to get a bit crunk tonite but plans change.. that sucks... great another lonely crappy weekend.
its ranting time. i hate it how i get short dicked out of things me n rona can do. family will always be infront of me. theres things i wanna do. its event slike this that makes me wish i didnt have sooo much fucking time on my hands. even with a girlfriend this summer, its still has been a weak ass summer. things that should of happened but didnt. sometimes it makes ME doubt the relationship... imagine that.. ME out of all people...right now i dont kno what to think... frige got fucked, now possibly no clubbing. akajdsfafjlalksdfjwerlk;zdx tomorow bonfante... eh.... i hate this shiet. why why the fuck this shiet... i hate this... i really fucking do.

2003-11-11T00:49:00.000-08:00

-| indeed good times |-

so i figure EVERYONE reads my xanga now, its jus more convient, and i like it a lot more than my blog. but yeah my lifes been getting better. everything is clicking. so yeah. i wana visit sjsu, but i have one more suprise in store before i do it. emil dont trip bout earlier. chillin wit the evc group wuz great. i want jenns type r, jenn if u die... its not my bad. i jus get your car. cant u pretend u die so i get ur car.. and then ur still alive? like 2pac? ^_^. well im happy, i got TONS of homework to do that imma procrastinate on cuz i really jus wanna talk to rona. but its good, im going to school. so yeah. =p eh latez.

2003-11-07T00:27:00.000-08:00

-| nite at tite |-

got a speeding ticket in the morning. ate at elephant bar for lunch. emil drove maries car. emil needs a car. he looked cool driving maries car. me n rona fell asleep on the way home. it was cute. ronas cute. i like rona. now all the lil girlies other than rona are crying away because lil patrick is finally mite have found someone. patrick is happy. rona makes patrick happy. therefor ice cream fixes everything. i am not a cow.

2003-11-05T21:26:00.000-08:00

-| letting go |-

whenever someone is bonded to something so much they shut out the good thats supposed to go in. for me pursuing something i couldnt have, i closed everything else that coulda have came in. well dropping taht ive found sumone a lot better. its great. things are finally going my way for once. if ur reading this rona. u make me happy =D its always fun wen ur around. well for ivi status. she now is zigen_buddy_ivi. toby was mad cuz his old exhaust sounds kinda louder than his new n1. but the n1 setup looks nicer than mine. either way its good shit. i love ivi. oooooh everylil thing about her i love. same wit her. every lil thing she does makes me smile ^_^

2003-11-04T23:31:00.000-08:00

-| fun for me | -

"nothin last for ever im sorry i cant be perfect and its just too late, and we cant go back, im sorry i cant be perfect......"

yes new song. everyone likes this for sumreason but yet i do too. today wuz soooo much fun. the dentist part suck and tell me how i dont scrap the dip to orchard.. but i scrape my driveway.. doh! oh well. chilin wit jenn emil n rona wuz like the best. i thought it would be awkward but it wuz hella fun. uhm thats all. oh exhaust tomorow i hope. ^_^ whee.

2003-10-31T00:12:00.000-08:00

-| get ready this is gonna be lots of heat |-

my whole lifes been filled wit shit. i jus realized that. growing up, i wuz always punked. highschool i had bad shit. college is bad shit. now its bad shit. come on trick seriously. u fall for a girl that has a boi?! u fall for a girl thats about to move back to tracy?! how come jimmy has a girl. how come emil works more than me and he has no car and i need the money more? why do i always get dicked in the littlest ways. how come i requested a day off and i got work that day. truly does no one care about me. WTF! forget today live tomorow. tomorow is jus gonna be the same bullshit. im thinkin im a great friend and all. drive emil everywere not askin nethin in return. secretly bring my sis to the dances so she can have her fun. my lifes just a bitch. whats the worst that can happen. i die. so in any sense nothing can be worse than that. i hate how at raves girls fuck wit my head. i hate how girls check me out and there boi is right there. i hate pretty girls wit butt ugly guys. i hate people who wont drop stupid shit. i hate wasting gas. i hate being single. i hate the fact all the good girls are wit the bad guys. i hate how i fall for the wrong girls. i hate the fact im so giving wit my trust. i hate myself. i hate what i see in the mirror. for ONCE i wish things would go my way. do they ever. no. maybe for a day. then that day is a day at the beach that you dont want to end. then its a stroll in hell for another 30 days. maybe if i align myself wit the devil things will go my way. hey... im down foo. come make my life better. im not bitching or complaining. i just told you my life story. dont be a fuckin hater.

2003-10-29T09:56:00.000-08:00

-/ blah /-

so here i am again. at evergreens comp lab. you know whats been buggin the fuck out of me. fuckin for the weekend, everytime i got into my car. baby bash would be playing. then heading to the gym last nite. in those jeans played. FUCk is it coincidence... i dont think so. why is it like this. wtf is going on. -_-; i really need to get laid. ill finish later. look at me... 6 hours?! haha thats what happens wen its been 10 months i guess

2003-10-29T09:46:00.000-08:00

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2003-10-29T09:43:00.000-08:00

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2003-10-27T07:44:00.000-08:00

hey sheen did you see the punk'd were they get hilary duff??? LOL. i hella wish i coulda saw your face on that one hahahahahahahahhaha

2003-10-26T12:32:00.000-08:00

-| gah |

nothin really has been new. ivi has gone through a MAJOR change within a three day state. and even more this week. god damn. project ivi 41%. i really need my paycheck. i wish it wuz fat but it aint gonan be. toby hold that exhaust for a bit. ill get it fosho. jus gimme a bit of time yo. nothin i really talk about so late.

2003-10-24T19:35:00.000-07:00

got out of the gym guess who was tehre the fine no ass bitch. oh well. looking towards this friday was a bitch. wuz hella lookin forward to watchin scary movie or tcm but i got dicked. now everyones seein it tonite and no one is gonna watch that wit me tomorow. gay sauce. things always tend to change after one great day huh. lifes a bitch and i hate it. im tired being the nice guy. maybe a change is gonna happen... who knows... i sure dont. but i know that being single is gay. and i plan to end that. very fuckin soon. all good things must come to an end. shut the fuck up! im out.

2003-10-22T23:16:00.000-07:00

continue? ..... 9...........8.......

aite. so today wuz koo. went wit toby to sum auto places. my new to-do list

drop ivi
wet sand all black trims (door handles, trims, skirts, license plate holder)
paint the trims white
paint interior white/and black... not the seats
5zigen exhaust
gsr rims for xmas
koni yellows sumtime down the line...
most of the stuff im hella down to do and i kno emil is too. so project ivi is underway. yay! its good that im working cuz it really is jus going to ivi. oh yeah. thats all.

2003-10-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

-| stacey orioco - theres more to life

i figure wit work and all mornigns is the only time ic an blog. so here i am again. i mite got o business but probably not. why its a stupid class and im gonna end up dropping it. it looks foggy so sleeping will be most likely easy. been getting to work out again. which is good with all this frustration im going through. finding a fuckin spring compresser is pissing me off. i think if emil doesnt work today. we'll install the springs regardless of the spring compresser. if i break my arm. you guys then kno what happened. well the song on the top is a song they play at work at they played it on mtv. so the song isnt hella old i guess. its kool. i also saw so yesterday. tell me why wen i see that video i jus hella see sheena. as if sheena was singing the song? -_* dorky sheen and your hilary duff obsession.... gtg.. ill post at school

2003-10-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

-/ idono /-

so its monday morning another type and bite post. so what has been on my mind. probably one thing. ill jus keep it wit that. friday i couldnt lower my car. saturday i got to kick it wit crys. i finally tried fuckin hypnotiq. crazy good shit. kicked it wit crys. god havent seeing her in so long wuz great. i wuz hella cheasin jus cuz she was here but when we were kickin it it hella seemed like it was a normal day. then yesterday the bitch work day. grr. all throughout work i was really jus stuck on one thought. yup you guessed it. so my feelings has dropped for dianne. oh well. with that dropping feelings for sumone else reborned. and i guess its better that way. saturday was really nice. i wanna feel like that again. lots of people have shit with me. thats the ironic part. peh... saturday i kno i wuz probably the most happiest ever. why? only one thing FOO! "idono"

2003-10-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

-| yo |-

what is up?! hey its an early post. i went to bus and found out my whole group cut cuz we have sum project due. imma prolly drop the class. i turned in my homework and cut out to here. the labs here sux. i really dont treat evc as "school". i consider work more school then here. well anyways im finally gonna be able to do shit to my car. i also had sum weird dreams last nite that conflicted and confused my emotions. it made me question who do i like again. damn it. well my register wuz short 10 yesterday... so im gettin written up. it wuz sum bitch ass customer sez my manager. well im hoping for a better week. hell crys is comin down. thats dopesauce. i wanna at least drop ivi before she comes. funny how that stupid friendster bulletin board where its that 1-11... u know wut im talkin bout. it wuz pretty dead on but.. why... is it true. no way. hi im patrick!

2003-10-08T00:06:00.000-07:00

-| not right |-

look a this.... whats wong here

im single. so girls. HOLLA.

2003-10-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

-| shit and a half |-

today i thought wuz gonna be a niceday. but i guess not... i fell asleep in business. i failed the quiz. went home. went to state. visited my friends. dianne wuznt pickin up her cell. um. took hella long at boa to get my checking account started. went to move my car becuz brian rolled in the dirt to get sum texas chainsaw massacre tix. we went in line. long. i saw dianne. she didnt have her tix. her friend did. her ex wuz there. it wuz gay. we didnt get in. so now i dont get to see tcm wit dianne at oakrige cuz she saw it. oh yeah i got a parking tix. -_- . it too hella long for hooka lounge to open up. that wuz probably the best thing of the nite. talked to sheen for jus a bit. nites over. tomorow theres a meeting. an i dont have work for most of the week.... ::sigh:: jimmy has a girl, travoltas still wit his. is there sumthin wrong wit me? i really dont know.

2003-09-28T14:41:00.000-07:00

-| back |-

k im back. its been awhile since i blogged and been online. nothin really new happened. jus started working and lost feelings maybe? i dono. well to the table i wont be able to visit much nemore since of work. new format. im on aol now. urban liquid x. things been changing. ::sigh:: i wanna visit tomorow to see the pix then bounce. but we'll see. latez.

2003-09-23T21:53:00.000-07:00

-| drama |-

its weird how after the weekend everything became so hectic. past few days its been hard to wake up. reading everyones shit made me wanna blog. and for people readin this on xanga. go on my blog to find how much i enjoyed cyberfest. i knew things were gonna change wen me n emil left. it sux more because next week, i wont be seeing the table... maybe at all. imma miss out and all i have are these online journals to keep me sorta updated. i also finally realized taht aaron has a defective gamecube, even to wen we first got it, zelda started glitchin. we shoulda switched it then. now... i ono if we can. im hoping. its fuckin god damn defective. i jus got wrestlemania xix and its hella fun until the cube freezes. tomorow imma hope to exchange it at target. i hope. im probably heading straight home tomorw so if ur sumhow reading this. ill be home so yeah jus come by. you kno who u r. after friday... i will finally realize how much i miss sjsu. with all this drama goin round, i hope wen i come back itll be like ol' times.

2003-09-21T10:03:00.000-07:00

-| the day after |-

let me tell you. cyberfest. CRAZY ass dope party man. seeing sarah and priyan there wuz great. though out most of the rave it wuz me n brian, walkin chillin, smokin, helpin each other out man.. much love to you dood. its true that raves do bring u closer together if you go wit a grip of friends. seein priyan n sarah hitting it made me hit it quick. then wen i saw will fuck foo wuz hella HAPPY! ahahahaha man all good, like me at pop5 n shiet. the fun slide wuz hella dope man. went down that thing head first. i wanna develop my pix cuz i wanna see how fucked up i wuz. i didnt get much sleep at all. came home roudn 5. woke up 9. got work at 11. jesus. well the party wuz off the hook. thank you brian, sarah, priyan, will, phoung, and leonard dood. hella good times man. lol fuckin brian got lost for awhile and i never got floored from julio. ::shrugs:: oh well. oh yeah. heading home, it wuz hella weird but i hella felt like my body wuz numb. i think i gave my head too many massages. but then after i rested it wuz gone.
b/p. "OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT!!!!!"
b. "I love you trick you my homie. homies fo life!!!!"
b. "i Miss vince!!!"

s."Its the best thing in the world, im glad i spent my first time wit you guys"
pr. "I ate through 15 lollipops and i dont care!!!!!!!!"
w. "Dood come here trick; when i saw you guys you hella made my roll come hella quick dood. "

Long post but it will prolly be the last one for awhile. From what you hear, this shit wuz dope man. i wuznt the only one still rolling after the rave wuz over so koo. i really wanna develop the pix today so i can show em to everybody. shiet!!! oh yeah on the way home, i took a LONG ass piss. it suxed. it went for like two minutes. it just wouldnt stop. damn vince piss. im jus hella glad i saw the people i wanted to see. im glad i wuz rolling for the whole rave. the fire shit wuz crazy. everytime i saw that i started rolling again. man i saw the pix will took wit his camera.. i look FUCKED.... lol. good party.

2003-09-20T10:52:00.000-07:00

GUYS I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHHAHAHAHAH YESSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today is gonna kick so much ass. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-09-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

Power, Courage, and Wisdom: TriForce. Each has their own strengths, but each has their own weakness. Power is strong; a force to be reckoned with. But his weakness is Wisdom, for he will rush into situations without analyzing the situation. Courage is just that: Courageous. His weakness is Power; he is fearless, yet he does not have the strength to persevere and often wallows in his own depression. Wisdom is a great asset, for he knows to analyze situations and not jump the gun. His weakness is Courage; he lacks the courage to do what he desires and often doubts himself. They are able to stand alone, but alone they cannot be strong. Together they bring balance-- a perfect balance.
:: Chris 9/19/2003 09:46:55 PM [+] ::

-| believe the hype |-

its the day of cyberfest. im fuckin excited. lsat nite wuz crazy. se7en shots i took damn. i shoulda stopped at 6. but being the triforce of power i never really think ahead. i felt bad becuz i wanted to look over emil but i wuz jus ko'ed. i remeber taking the se7enth shot, and thats all i can remember. everyone said i ko'ed in the bathroom. and wen i woke up to puke, i wuz in my wife beater... once again i dotn kno how that happens. chris drove me and emil home. tina emil chris i love you guys. i came home and amber and justine were there. i wuz sooo fucked up i jus hugged em. they sed i smelled like alcohol. they were rite on the spot. later on, i guess i took a nap. sheen called becuz i left a msg. haha. she didnt understand anything i said. and i trully dont remember what i said. i talked to her for awhile. she helped eased my state of drunkness. i wanted to yack but it wouldnt get out. i took a shower and called sheen back. i knew she had work and i starting to get tired. its great talkin to her. she always puts a smile on my face. well my sleep wuz not one of the greatest i had in my life. i had a splitting headache and i would have a dream even if i close my eyes. the dreams i had on alcohol are not one of the best and they felt TOO real. one dream i wuz at a bar wit friends.. this one guy had vics inhalers all over his hand.. like the inhalers were his fingers. this one guy likes my necklace and stud and next thing he tries to kiss me. i hella duck and go "wtf bitch im straight as an arrow!! and he has this oh shit face. next thing u kno i gett kicked out of the place for beating his ass. next dream i had i thought i wuz talkin to terry. and she wuz mad at me. that felt so real too that i had to like check my fone to see if i got a call or made a call to her. i had off and on rest. it wuz gay. well today cyberfest happens. i dunno if dianne is going. i hope will fixes his candy dilemma. il probably post if i got the job at aero. till later or tomorow. latezzz

2003-09-19T00:03:00.000-07:00

-| one more day |-

step into my world... whats on your mind... welcome to someone xanga site... well i have a lot of shit i wanna get out of my head. well the job interview at aero went koo. im afraid theyre gonna call at nite time on sat. and im buzy. so well imma call em in the afternoon to make it easier for me. imagine me finding out i get the job at the party. thatll jus make it ever so much better. i can hella picture it.... "HEY GUYS I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!" "ok........." "::patrick running around yelling i got the job::" -_-. well im not too sure of what my feelings are right now. am i starting to have a secret crush on dianne like i did before, eh i dont think i can do anything.. well i can.. but eh. this weekend is all the fun ill get... this will be the closest i ever get to ending my dry spell witout really ending it. dianne wuz very nice today. i wuz so stuck on her ass. i didnt kno it, but emil knew. my bad. so this sat is gonna be off the hook. then i have a few hours to sleep and if everything went right that day. ill be wakin up early to stock aeropostale:oakrige... oh man. and all these things wit akbayan... i wonder what ill do... i wanna keep the job, but i wanna attend. we'll see.

2003-09-16T23:38:00.000-07:00

.: cant think of a title :.

wel ive been meaning to blog, but i always tend to forget wen im on this thing. well if u havent heard i got called back to the second group interview wit emil and tina. pretty chris is the following day, so hopefully if we get the job, we can all chill and ill finally get to chill wit pretty chris again. this joe schmo show is fuckin addicting. me and aaron are watchin it as i type. LOL he hella went into my room wen my dad went downstairs. LOL papa didnt even go to work yet. LOL. i notice from watchin real world n this, theres always a gay guy, virgin, bitch, jerk, and the guy whos innocent. LOL aarons hella cute, he ran into his bed jus to get his pillow, he wuz all sneaky bout it. HELLA cute. i think the way me and aaron get close is our competetiveness. i strive to be the best... yet aarons teh best in this famly. hes the king of games in the bautista home. im really hoping sheena gets this place. she deserves so deserves it. well i also washed my car. ivi so bootyful. i honestly kissed her cuz she wuz so shiny n clean. i wuz happy cuz i found my wax as u dry extra bottle thing. oh on our visit to sjsu, we were heading home and i saw the parking garage truck thingy! and i wuz like oh shit!... fuckin go to my car, theres like a truck rite there. but what what!? im ticket free! sucKa!!!! oh yea! my finite eng1a n econ r prolly my fun classes. econ. is fun and theres girls wha wha?!. finite cuz emils in it and i hella understand the teacher. and eng1a cuz rv is in there and so is this one girl jackie. i like sitting next to rv, i feel more intelligent from his presense. hes the last guy i didnt want to see in a community college. hes hella smart. so devoted to god. his family isnt the typical family and i know he really didnt go to the college of his choice because of family reasons. if i wuz still into church. id hella admire and like look up to him. k imma leave im still watchin the joe schmo show

2003-09-14T23:21:00.000-07:00

.: rage :.

sorry guys i already know this post will be long. ok. i dont like travoltas girl. travolta if ur reading this... sorry bro its the truth. i cant stand her. i feel like im the fuckin shulfer. always drivin em around. it makes me bitter and jealous, bitter because theres jus too much affection. jealous because i dont have sumone i can hold. this wait is driving me crazy. its like all this is a test. im thinkin another sign is showing. justine broke up wit her boy, minnies boi cheated on her, i foudn out ho broke up wit julie. according to my lucky fortune, 14 is a lucky number, today is the fourteenth. today i realized a lot of things. it wuz hot. imma look for apts for sheen. got a job interview tomorow. i wuz more errked before but i guess i shimered down. everyones goin to cyberfest, hopefully emil n steph too. im hella excited. im hoping dianne is goin to. its gonna be soooooo much fun. it drives me crazy. being single. i dont get it. i really dont.

2003-09-11T20:30:00.000-07:00

.: sept.11 :.

today wuz suprisingly well for a sept 11th. school went by fast. went to sjsu. i wuz complimented. got to see phoung. shes so beautiful. even chris sis sed she wuz fine. she is! shes like amazingly beautiful for rilz. well job interview at aeropostale wuz fun. i hope i get the job. i so need it. then itll be all aero gear for the next year maybe. LOL.. everyones goin to cyberfest so this is gonna be great. i need money for my pills. im hella excited. this is great! now time to do my hmwrk

2003-09-10T23:18:00.000-07:00

.: homework :.

damn homework.. i was kinda glad i had work to do to put my self to use, but it was too much and now im sleepy as fuck. well i had an interestng conversation wit chris at the gym bout tanya. its fucked up. i wanted to rant about it but now im jus tired... eh shower time. oh yeah i got a job interview for aeropostale tomorow at 330. its a group interview, and emil, chris and tina are all there. hmm. interesting. i have a good feeling about this job interview. i really do.

2003-09-07T11:22:00.000-07:00

.: fun :.

well sat wuz really koo. travolta calls me round 12 to hit me up about sum bbqs goin down. so im down. i pick him up, we get gas, then we pick his girl. we then pick up his girls friend minnie, god... she has a very very nice ass and has a cute personality. id jock her if she wuz single, maybe.. well at the first bbq, there wuz sum decent girls. there wuz this one girl wit red hair. fine! single too. once she gets all her braces out damn. holla at ya boi! jennie got caked like a mother fucker. i felt sorry. minnie ran errands then we dropped her off. hit up another party. ALL VIET! the girls were hot. but i didnt wanna holla cuz u dont kno whos taken and what not. and the viet to patrick ratio wuznt good. but there were sum cute girls. i felt everyone thought i wuz viet, and all i did wuz shake my head no. LOL. well then that party wuz dry so we went to the after party bbq party. wen i arrived i saw jasper. and jasper hella jumped up cuz i wuz the only guy he knew. well i wanted to get fcuked but then the girls were already k.o. it wuz nine wen we arrived. i figured ill jus take it easy. i jus took sum shots... not even after my second shot girls be dancin... then this cute girl terry wuz like dance wit me and im like ok (cuz i wuz supposed to go clubbin) it wuz koo she had a nice ass. dancing while buzzed is kinda new to me. well later on i wuz happy drunk and everyone wuz jockin me. im thinkin its the bald head. oh yea! so yeah. but even wit all this.. i stil wait for one. idono why, im thinkin that if i get wit sum girl, rite after she'll break up wit her boi. that sux. so yeah. ill jus wait. and have my fun.

2003-09-05T21:36:00.000-07:00

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2003-09-05T21:33:00.000-07:00

.: fear :.

Beneath the sky, a monster sleeps within. Dwelling in a dark room, not even knowing his true form. The spirit of a humble child but a heart of a trusted hero, he is a man that casts fear into peoples eyes. If looks can be deceving this monster is the one who started the myth. When meeting him, you become cocky knowing that "he isnt shit" but you wait and he toys with you. You become real cocky and let all yer defenses down. Now... it starts... He counters your attack and immediatly the fear sets in. You think, "oh.....nooooooooooo......". Then its over. You have another chance and he beats you mercilecly, you try to counter back and you realize your working so hard for nothing. Anything you do to him doesnt hurt him. You attack, he counters and adds more fear. And you are then once again helpless to the beating. Its over. You lost. Your hands, feet, mind, and body are frozen in fear. You just lost to a boy. Fear dwells on you. You look at him and he smiles. Your ego is hurt. Its as if all your hopes, your beliefs and dreams were destroyed. The monster that became from me and chris' "training" did what we did. We made him go beyond us. Now he is at the level where me and chris look at him at fear. Sure Soul Caliber 2 is a game, but just imagine your 19, hes 11. He has a 10 win streak on your ass. Your attacks do nothing, and he can parry you and make you hate it. The monster that was released was incredible. My body literally froze in shock. Like Gohan in dragon ball z, a child shouldnt be underestimated. My brother Aaron who should be called the "Spirit Killer" will be great. I invite you to go against him. He "WILL" make you fear him. You watch.

2003-09-04T22:10:00.000-07:00

.: rest :.

today i woke up, left early hoping to add a morning class. i was, unsuccessful... now i have to add a friday class... damn i wanted my fridays for work outs, iono wuts gonna happen now. i can say that my school is gonna fuck my workout. i fell asleep in philo when a cute girl wuz in my class. this girl jackie in my english class is fine too. in english we wrote our diagnostic. it wuz an event that changed my life. what it was wuz sjsu. entering and leaving. leaving it makes me want it more. "you dont know what you have till its gone" and "once i grasp it again ill never let go" where stuff i said in the essay. oh yeah yesterday when me and emil are trying to add, to get in the class u have to draw a number 1-24 if not ur dicked. the day me n emil tried gettin in the same class. day before i got in but not emil, i saw emil outside the window, i was sad, and i left. yesterday this couple tries to add. the guy gets in walks in to class, the girls draws, but doesnt get the number.. so she dont get the class. the boyfriend..... stays. now i draw a number i dont get in, emil draws a number he gets in, what does emil do, fuck it friendship is more. kinda stupid, but dope wit bronie points.. i can honestly say emil and chris are probably gonna be best mans at my wedding. just a thought i wanted to bring in. its been about 5 or 6 years i known emil, kinda odd... but me n him are very similar and very different. its great to have friends like that... no matter what they got yer back, no stupid shit can tear it up. thats what you call a friendship. we are the triforce, i bit off akbayan.. lol.. emil would have the tri of courage, chris tri of wisdom, trick tri of power. why? i wanted to have tri of courage cuz it links to link but it suits emil more, cuz emil has more balls than i do, chris always trys to be right ( i noticed this foo) so hence he's always seeking wisdom hence tri of wisdom, me i always seek being more powerful, the test today made me realize how determined i want back at state... we should get tats of the triforce, and wutever triforce we are its a lil darker jus like in zelda...or even better the triforce we are a chinese symbol of our last names. patient pending / copyright of elementliquidx2/nightkidsgtr/lostsoulrac3r.

2003-09-01T17:27:00.000-07:00

.: labor day :.

well sunday wuz crazy... we went to bonfante, very boring, i dont even recommend taking a girl there.... i walked in, and already i felt hella asian and old. like the only surroundings were white and old, so if i saw an asian girl she wuz automatically cute.... odd. my fun wuz made of forcing aaron to go on rides and stealing various items. the food wuz gay...

-| later on that nite |
priyans party, he called me while i was taking a shower, so i slipped in the bathroom. he called and almost instantly i left. i wuz almost there and travolta called and needed a ride, i had this feeling i needed him for later so i went to get him. i entered the party like chris does, bumping load music and waking the neighbors. max the dog kept licking my hand.... he must like chips and ranch dip too, cuz thats wut i ate before i arrived. the night wuz filled with plenty of mixed drinks. damn alcohol. damn poker, i dont even remember me staying in that long. i remember playin the guitar, that was great, even though i only knew the verse to a song... it brings back memories. i went home and fell on the bed, instantly i fell asleep.

-| when i arose |
2 secs after i woke up. it wuz morning and my stomach had that bitter feel where the alcohol is swimming around. i needed to throw up, but if i did, my parents woulda known i drank the nite before. so i waited till we went shopping. they were eating at happi house and i said that i was full because of breakfast. when they went inside i threw up. it felt good. it didnt burn, and it wuznt chunky either. it felt so good... almost as good as when you jus got laid after long months... notice how i said ALMOST. nothing is better than sex. nothing. well maybe "her" and "game" no.. jus "her". well back to the story, right after i threw up, old people came, then wen the old people left, police came, i thought the old people told on me. eh damn sick fat fucks. its sad that our law enforcement are so out of shape, it makes me wonder how black people get caught by these people. black people are fast, have you seen the commercials?
the world is so corrupt, the tallest bball player is chinese, the best golfer is black, the best rapper is white, people in gov't have names like dick and bush, we have an action hero whos gonna win govenor position, fine asian girls with white/black guys or ugly asian guys, travoltas getting laid, im single, and it seems like forever to get soul caliber 2, damn finally this entry has | end |

2003-08-31T00:20:00.000-07:00

.: a very boring bday for big boi :.

well i guess for sum reason today was the day im supposed to stay at home...all plans for tonite got bukkaked on the face like a mofo... well on a plus i met up wit a friend on friendster from back then... shes hot. -| end |-

2003-08-28T23:08:00.000-07:00

.: holy shizzle foshizzle my nizzle? :.

wut the fuck does all that mean. i do not know. ok first rant. damn mexicans stripping a sports car of the name sport. how u gonna make it so the mud flaps stick out in an ugly direction, have a green trunk, grey back bumper, and them ugly ass gold 100 spoke rims that stick out, taking out the great suspension tuning of an integra. god that killed my day. i wanted to shoot that fucker, chris knows how much i love integs and to see one turned into that. ::pulls out shotgun and shoots the fag 10 times and takes his blood and wipes it across my chest like brock lesnar:: well vmas wuz kinda depressin, tatu didnt perform, fifty didnt take it all suprisingly but missy got 2 and those were well deserved. beyonce had a nice entrance and 50s performance wuz a let down. the show seemed rushed.... i do wish i can go to a vma after party, no a diddy after party... shit! well first week of unofficial school ended... next week is the real shit. lets break in your new bottle priyan! i wish i can infect girls wit filipino like how travolta infected her wit chinese... damn the chinese

2003-08-28T00:07:00.000-07:00

.: i kidnapped my sisters koala :.

why? i do not know..

2003-08-26T22:58:00.000-07:00

.:the day of regret:.

a month too late, a confusing choice of prom dates, the choice to wait, coming to a dorm one night, meeting an old elementary crush, staying in the union, high school, a year too late and feeling jaded.... all these things are things i regret. why has all this come to surface. well. WHAT IF? those two words in itself can kill an ego. it drives the mind crazy.. with reoccuring dreams, thoughts that cant be forgotten, and making a person afraid to do the same mistake twice. i think too much for a person. but wouldnt u, if new years wuz the start of yer dry spell, people say "i hella dont get why ur single", and ur friend be gettin action every nite. i want my turn... ive been waiting all this time. wen will the good karma come back in. =(. i always wonder yes ill wait for her. but what if that chance never happens, what happens if i wait forever and it doesnt pay off. did i waste my life away.... when will happiness happen for me. sorry guys... its jus this single thing is killing me.

~patience is a virtue... i think its my curse~

2003-08-25T22:17:00.000-07:00

.:first unofficial day of school :.

well today was the first day of school. of sjsu. it was great. view is much nicer. i feel taller. i got free axe again! haha, oh shiet and i saw hella heads i knew. julio, OLIVER, peeps from last semester. it was great. seeing oliver there wuz a trip cuz usually i jus see him at church. a lil more motivation to come back. despite the fees, and shiet... im down. sjsu ill return! i also think that the bald me is a bit more confident then spikey haired patrick. i also think my skins more cleaner than before... i think im a lil more confident this year, which IS good. haha nigger trail. lol fuckin zamora

to sheen
i can kinda help u wit the room situation, but then see the problem all apts available are around san jo, so it would be one hell of a commute for u, but if u decide to go to sjsu. then its all good. well either way, ill try to help you out.

2003-08-24T23:51:00.000-07:00

.:a close to summer (cont):.

well i just popped two tynanolpm pills so i can wake up early cuz chris is pickin me up pretty early. well the main reason why im bloggin rite now, is i just realized sumthin that happened last year that sumone should redo it self this year. wen the youngins entered sjsu. we were all single, within the first weeks, travolta had sumthin on wit a girl, like probably same time or a lil after, i met christina...then second semester went on and emil had his girl and chris wuz chasin his. so! well travolta already found a girl, so by law, i should either meet a new girl or a better chance wit sumone else. its weird cuz i wuz thinkin of this idea while brushing my teeth, then wen i came back to my room, her song started playing wen i entered.::sign:: hopefully its her. NITEZ peeps. sjsu tomorow.

2003-08-24T13:25:00.000-07:00

.:a close to summer:.

well tomorow is school, technically not for me, but for sjsu. but since i dont wanna be home all by myself, imma go to sjsu to kick it. this summers kinda been dull. the only pro to this summer is that i worked out all summer, so im stronger and im thinkin a lil bit more buff. i didnt achieve any goals i planned. but ::sigh:: with school, imma be more motivated to do well. to recap summer in words it would be alcohol, drugs, memories, friends, departure, sleep, eat, training, ZELDA, tv, pool, sober, and the most disgracing one, not getting laid... dont worry, ill get em before xmas comes, im sure of it. i also sold my atlantis tix, not to sure if it was smart it being the last and only rave of the summer. oh well.CYBERFEST. with the last day of summer, i can expect to chill wit emil at church.... and sjsu for oneweek i return... i kno shits gonna start crackin with the first few daysof school.i FUCKIN kno it. and usually im not the person to feel these kinda situations.

2003-08-23T02:01:00.000-07:00

.:I Give Up...:.

2003-08-22T00:54:00.000-07:00

.:pharell & busta - light your ass on fire:.

sippin on a strawberry smoothy, i think of the state of mind im in. am i excited, sad, lost. lost seems right. nothin i do pleases my parents. im really pissed at my sis because she hogs the net. as far as she doesnt tell me if i get instant messages, or tells me who signs on. it pisses me of. i think my problem is im too fucking nice. sure EVERYONE says im sweet and i shouldnt be single. im sick of hearing that shit. its jus a slap in my face. even if im an ideal guy, the other guy always wins. this summer has been one of the most boringest summers. working out and sleeping isnt ideal. falling for sumone i probably wont have a chance with. talking about my life on this thing. i miss the old me. getting fucked up, not remember the nite before. always out. had something to do. im actually anticipating the return to school. at least there i might find something. i ono how im feeling right now. probably just in a state of confusion if anything. i hate the life i live, and i really wish i could change myself. sometimes im not happy with my self... i think to myself everytime when i go to sleep, wen will i be happy again... will i ever be happy... what... IF?

2003-08-20T01:10:00.000-07:00

.:eh:.

well today wuz kinda slow. i didnt get to work on my shoulders today cuz everyone wuz hogging the benches. well its good that sheens ok. the weekend wuz full of gettin drunk. i find it annoying wen sum people i dont like talkin to try to get met o call em, i dont think i have a "sexy" nor think im a great guy. any girl would be glad to have me everyone sez. but if its true, why am i single. one reason. im waiting.

2003-08-18T00:24:00.000-07:00

.:damn....:.

im drunk. thats it. its hard to type. and yeah. if you are reading this, i miss you. wish you were here =). ^_^

2003-08-17T16:41:00.000-07:00

.:to you:.

i kno what has happened and i wished i could have told you earlier... but if you need a place to crash any time, you know ill be here to help you out.

2003-08-16T00:32:00.000-07:00

.:yes im bored:.

well today was slow. partys didnt happen but i also started a checking account. cool... u kno how daredevils other senses got hella improved. remember the sex scene.... that musta been greaT! well schools starting soon and i havent done much. but one thing i kno is that i should do things that would impair my memory.well thats a hope... and usually things dont work out for me. i shoulda worked out today. use my "motivation" technique. hehe. imma wait. no matter how long it takes. and trust me. theres no one better than you.

2003-08-14T01:24:00.000-07:00

.:funny:.

today jean calls askin if i wanna go wit her to carolyn truongs thing. ok i go. find out it wuz one of those job things. but eh it wuz koo. saw big will and andrew pang. so that wuz koo. seeing her again wuz nice. oh yea 2 more signs sheen. one i gotta show u. hella funny.... it relates the two things u n me hate... its odd but yeah. you just never know...

2003-08-13T01:19:00.000-07:00

.:random:.

yea chris your rite i still read ur blog. i never read yer xanga. EVER! lol. yea i can understand were u come from chris. ur one of the only few peole i know who hella work hard and dont get rewarded. dont worry man, ur time will come up. my mind is so... duh... only because of one reason. if ur reading this its all the questions mentioned today. il just end this dumbfounded.

2003-08-12T00:34:00.000-07:00

.:the legend of zelda:The Windwaker:.
-listening to... 702 - you'll just never know

i beat zelda. great. once again, i am bored. im probably gonna be selling my yugioh cards. im hoping i can sell em for a decent price i already framed the buster, m.force, jinzo, n feather duster ::sigh:: the infamous quote "i dont get it how your single..... yea i dont know why either"
~the torture a soul that seeks an ungraspable prize feels.

2003-08-09T21:32:00.000-07:00

.:great america:.

koo day, went to pick up jay then headed out to g.a. g.a is g.a. nothin to exciting, the rides were fun, its more fun if u dont go in hella long and ride the rides... its like new again. uh wut else. girls be jockin. did i holla. no. dont need to dont want to. well jay got that hanna tat, it wuz koo, then got an engraved ring name thing. imma get a ring soon and wear it on my ring finger wen i go to evc. therefore no gays will hit on me. lol i figured out if i ever get wit a girl... i kno wut exactly to get. am i gonna say. no. thats pretty much it. oh yea aaron wuz a chicken shit... so that kinda ruined the day.

2003-08-07T23:53:00.000-07:00

.:shit:.

ok... for todays royal ramble... imma talk about shit talkers. everyone does it. does anyone like it. no. its worse enough to shit talk. then to do it behinds sumones back. ok thats normal. but who talks shit online.... and no no no this isnt online like on aim. but its sumthin maybe like this?! i kno this isnt affecting u, but it does affect U. sure shit talking is fun wen its face to face... "your ass is too wide or you suck in bed" thats all good wen its jokes and play, but saying it on a website. u kno who u are. childish shit. say it to my face. too afraid??? well then shut the fuck up! u always bit off "her" and u were a lousy kisser. two can play that game... maybe even three. wut now! nikka!!!!

-my apologies to everyone except *ahem* for this post.

2003-08-06T02:20:00.000-07:00

.:now playing:. b2k - what a girl wants

why am i feeling sad... i feel chris freedom, i too am doomed to the role of the big brother... home by eleven on weekdays too take care of amber and aaron. being cut from life is exactly how i feel. my daily routine is wake up eat gym, then home for the rest of the day... its odd how its two and id proly still be on the fone, but i called and i figured she was asleep cuz of work... either that or didnt recognize my moms number. oh well... i kno ur reading this, i hope u kno that everything reminds me of u, even going to the mall and jus lookin at shit at the stores reminds me of u. like i went into champs and your song wuz playing.. haha even air force ones reminds me of u... and pink.. haha wutever... its funny how this b2k song is hitting me... its like i cant explain... i see all these people happy, couples, i think bout my past, how ex bfs have so much power... sumtimes i wish i could jus be a "playa". but my heart aint like that... well today is like weds. if you are reading this, and u kno who u r, jus come by, u kno im always home. we'll think of sumthin to do. aite imma try to hit the sack, if not imma play a few countless hours of zelda... i noticed that my version 3 format makes my posts seem so fuckin long... my bad guys, imma shorten them up now

"i think about you all the time, 247 babe...... ill be there for you, pick you off off your feet " -kevon edmond - 247

2003-08-05T00:27:00.000-07:00

.: angy :.

im pissed, mom took phone away becuz bills too high... ill get it back just watch. need to reach me call my house 4082749169 call twice if i dont pick up the first time. cuz sumtimez i think its tellamarketers. look im so mad that i spelled the title wrong... wutever. ill have my fone like tomorow

[later the same nite]

hmm.. i should be sleeping but i cant, i cant wait to wake up and work out... its weird. ive never really wanted to do that... so thats new. im confused about things. im not happy wit my physical appearance. our baby love birds died. my mom bitches to much. i agree wit zamora, i think i too believe in love. i also know if im not chasing sumthin im wasting away my youth... wether it be sumone in particular or physical appearance or other things. i must long for sumthin, there has to be sumthin i have to chase, it dont matter if i dont catch it, i jus have to chase it. the innocence of knowing what can happen but denying it for the sense of hope... maybe its hope too... yea love and hope is what i live for... u live the day hoping to find the special sumone, spend time wit that special person, a raise, a job, a new friend.... why am i blabbering away.. cuz i really dont have nethin else better to do.

2003-08-03T03:18:00.000-07:00

.: [title goes here] :.

ok this sex talk wit zamora is funny. good job for him. i need my turn for sum of this action. anyways, i couldnt sleep, and i changed sum stuff up. i am in desperate need of sumone to go wit me to g.a on sat. any takers, if ur reading this u qualify. hella free food. uh. yea. its a family thing. so yeah. hit me up if u wanna go. i swear i had more to talk about but thats it... nitezzz"officially missing you too"

2003-08-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

.: rambles :.

ive had chicken all week, im tired of pimples, girls got it made, with birth control pills, they get a lighter period, clear skin, and can have unprotected sex... lucky! i have a new goal for working out, at the begining of the next week, i will add five pounds more than i have done the last week, so like everyweek i add five pounds.. its a reasonable goal rite... well this is jus sum ramblings, ill finish the rest later.

[ later ]

uh... i finally found the song on a good server. WOO! is it that obvious how i feel? hmm...

2003-07-31T00:30:00.000-07:00

.: signs :.

heart shaped cloud // many playings of fabulous-so into you and ginuwine-in those jeans at infamously weird times // georges shyness // parents wanted to see her but didnt // parents ask if shes comin wit us to g.a // wen lyrics get to you // tootsie loves her // we share common interests // realizing that been to the spot i always wanted to but never got the chance until tonite // how everything worked out // the total irony on why im believeing signs...

2003-07-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

.: now playing :. ginuwine - in those jeans

yo wasup guys. ok i really think things actually happen for a reason, well i forgot the word i wuz thinkin of, seriously i wuz stuck thinkin it for like 20 mins. but oh well. ok today i find out chris couldnt find how to lose a guy in 10 days so i wuz stuck. i realized that on sun we didnt use the .99 cent coupon for the dvd. i find all my quarters and rent the movie. i also realized its a two day movie, so even if i rented it on sun. i wouldnt keep it till today. [weird thing 1 ] so it worked out. well then me n my bro and everytime i left the room aarons stereo wuz still on. aaliyah - i miss you played first, and i didnt wanna turn it off. then the second time i left the room in your jeans played and wen i got back into my room my homegirl called sayin shes on her way [weird thing 2 ]. well ill talk but the more important stuff. she came by and she LOVES tootsie, george wuz acting different. we watched how to lose a guy in ten days, she loved it. she loved my baby pix. we went to different places to chill. like the view at berryessa OMFG! dood we parked my car, and we were gonna stand to get a better view, on of the people like... dump there garbage over the cliff.. and were like WTF?!!!?!?!? and we turn around and head back to my car tryin to pretend we didnt see shit. this fuckin lady dump this shit rite behind the no literring sign. LOL omg. other view were koo but the nice one wuz wen we went back to the lake... and had the niice view. it wuz so relaxing, the awkward silence wuznt awkward. it wuz nice. we saw a heart shaped cloud. i swear!!! it was a great day. until boppers became stupid and angered the neighbors, then cops kicked them and us out. we didnt do shit, we were enjoyin the view. i hate wen shit like that happens, like i HONESTLY wuznt doin nething wrong. i swear. oh yea... there wuz a frog that scared my homegirl. lol that wuz funny AND scary. lol. oh yea we learned things too, i learned colorfuly ducks are girls and squirrels have a short term memory so wen they get an acorn they forget where they put it, and thats how it becomes a tree. she learned if u high beam a stoplight it turns green, girls get drunk more than guys because girls body water level is lower than guys. crys come visit, we ALL need to get fuckin wasted. TOGETHER. WOO! ill add more wen i remember everythin clearly

i always remembered, nothing can be better than my senior ball, like that wuz it nothing could top it. well i think i found sumthin that makes the ball look like a middle school dance.

2003-07-29T23:22:00.000-07:00

.:now playing:. kiss - because im a girl

alright wednesday is tomorow, im excited. a monsoon is hitting where crys is at. its been cloudy. christina wants me to go clubbin. my rents want me to bring sumone to g.a on aug 9th. i have sumone in mind but she has work on sats. im excited for tomorow.. the word is giddy.

2003-07-28T13:50:00.000-07:00

whee! if i was an animal i know id be that one LOL

2003-07-27T01:10:00.000-07:00

has anything completely taken over your thoughts. that your daily thoughts become jus about this one thing? is it normal? is it healthy? why is it all i can think about is her? i know its good but this is like a new feeling to me, like im a 13 year old having a crush on a girl. thats how i feel. im hopin sumtime this week ill rent and watch final destination 2. do u ever think that things arent conincedence, i kno i havent before until now... its weird.. but maybe im thinkin to much... feeligns does that to u, u kno.

"all im sayin is that any bird that goes gobble gobble is just asking to be a sandwich" -jack in the box AHAHAHAHA... i want a turkey jack

2003-07-26T02:03:00.000-07:00

lost in thought

have u ever had one of those 4 hour conversations that went by so quick that u were afraid u were gonna see the sun rise? well yea i had that last nite... lol i talked bout the most embarassing stories which is odd because usually i wouldnt humilate myself that much... oh well. well today i worked out again, which is good, ive been hitting the weights frequently like i should be. thanx oli for the tips it helped. then earlier in the evening after i worked out i didnt really wanna go home. so i set out on an adventure, i went back to my park, chris' park and jus sat down and recapped on life. the whole time i wuz in deep thought i could only think of one person. i can honestly say id wait HELLA long for this girl. im not usually a patient man but shes worth the wait. shes hella cute, im comfortable around her where i am myself, my true dorky self, we share a lot of things in common. its where ever time i call her, i hesitate to call, cuz i get nervous? odd? yes? i can jus talk to this girl online and that will be the highlight of the day. some of you reading this might kno who im talkin bout. u kno wen u kno sumthin feels right? like prom? graduation? christmas? u kno those feelings? peace, ease, relief? it feels like that every time i talk to her... im weird i kno. but at least im not normal. im unique ^_^. the only problem is. iono if this happiness can be achived. why you ask? well.... ill jus say sumones in the way. =\ "Me and trish wonder how the FUCK you're still single" yep. i wonder too.

elementliquidx ver.3

2003-07-24T02:36:00.000-07:00

finally version 3 is finally up. its always nice to change it up a bit rite?

2003-07-23T20:37:00.000-07:00

on simpsons earlier i think it had like a drug kinda thing... the one wit mindy rite... well see wen he first saw mindy, he saw her naked in a clam rite.. then he sed that he wuz hallucinating and he shouldnt have aten the bag of powdered potatos... but then wut bag of sumthin makes u hallucinate. shrooms my dear friend so im linking that homer ate shrooms. also wen he left work the second time and went into the place wit trout the fish were singing. and then the naked angel lenny and carl came and said "your hallucinating again thats not good" so henceforth homer ate shrooms. ^_^. oh yeah. two points. ::patrick is thrusting in the direction of the problem... oh yeah!"

2003-07-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

nothin much.. i bet ur think OH SHIET becuz of the song... yea it sounds familiar... its way back in the day

2003-07-20T12:13:00.000-07:00

ok it wuznt atlantis but it wuznt boring either

its weird now but my parents are like baller status now... for the past month i believe we've been doin hella family event things. like awhile ago we went to marine world. we've been watchin hella movies like t3 and pirates (which was another movie i can say i enjoyed). then theres g.a in like aug. and next week were having sizzler. we also gone bowling too. veery weird.. i heard the heat waves gonna end soon so yea... i find it weird also that before crys left she gave me a present. and we named it phoenix rite.... and jus last nite wen i visited her xanga i saw phoenix, az. i wuz like WHOA WTF! so its a really weird coincidence. also wen vince left i gave him my gloves so wen he parties he has a lil bit of patrick wit him. u kno like joeys red eyes is in yugis deck? it feels like that sure i miss my friends that left. if ur close friends moved away. ud feel the same way. biotch. trish is also movin to diego. poor her.. she didnt want to. sheen scared me wit her "stories" and dianne is goin through a lot. yet she is very funny to talk to while shes drunk. kim got scared last week by sum annonimous call. atlantis wuz postponed. as everyone knows... so im really expecting this rave to be off the heezy... cuz sumtime soon all this is gonna end. i kno it. i got into the scene a lil more than a year ago and already i feel like im enterin the jaded phase. y? cuz the parties i heard of and hope to see dont happen.... half the people in there are under 18... im also lookin for a relationship, not a lil summer ftf fling thingy but i have nothin against ftfs. its jus wit all these bfs treating their gfs bad.. makes me wanna have a gf and treat her as royalty... oh yea how to lose a guy in 10 days is really cute.. id watch it again... but only wit a special sumone ;) ;)

2003-07-17T23:36:00.000-07:00

atlantis postponed till aug 23rd... yay... if u cant tell by enthusiasm im pissed by this... oh well now more people can go. like YOU!

2003-07-17T00:25:00.000-07:00

wuts the first thing i hear wen i sign online tonite? atlantis moved its location

great... changed the venues... and what am i thinkin in my head..."It better not be where pop and cyberfest were at..." then wut does Cathy tell me... "its at the place pop 5 wuz at. remember that?" ACK! this stacked on wit no ride, no pills... man im really reconsidering this shit... sigh... well today lily came over and we watched how to lose a guy in 10 days... i got hella into it. kate hudson is so fine. i would seriously take her over kristen kreuk anyday.. why u ask? because every guy jocks kristen, and kate has nicer eyes. yea wutever... plans are that i call vince get julios number... and ask for a ride and help wit my pill dilemna... maybe if julio aint buzy he can spin sum of his beats and try to get me back into the vibe for atlantis... I NEED THIS PARTY.. i need to feel for it again.. shit iono whatever latezzz

2003-07-13T02:12:00.000-07:00

realization.... denial.... refurbished...

these three steps is actually what im going through right now. i realized that this last school year wuz horrific. i came in to college, there i met christina and became a guy that partied every weekend, got drunk, and got sum ass. that lifestyle was not bad wut-so-ever. after that, i then became a heavy pothead. once my two "drug buddys" where no longer there. there was still one friend still there. the party animal vince is is everything i sought for in a friend. now thats gone i live in denial. trying to deny that these actions never happened. but in the vastness of my soul, i know i enjoyed every single moment. so whats going to happen to trick? after atlantis, im pretty sure ill be hitting soberity for aWHILE... unless sumone hits me up. but my party animals are gone. so now what? jus work out... do whatever.... live life day to day... find a girlfriend?.... listening to all this trance makes me super psyched for atlantis. even though im short on ride and pills, i will find it. having the mindset that this is the last rave of the summer will make it all that much better. the music will be my only god there. and after this event, i will be refurbished so i will be like but not exactly .... new. it sucks how friendships can be built so quick and become so strong in a short amount of time... but then for that to be taken away from you two months later... IT SUCKS! i can bitch and wish for u two to come back but i know thats it. hey maybe it was supposed to happen. maybe there are no coincidences in life... maybe it all was planned for the best. i dont know do you? please tell me you have a cure for cancer? cause if you do that would be great? oh you dont, goodbye moe. goodbye professor. wait that was the simpsons...
hehe, i can only be serious for a short amount of time... oh yea i finally watched t3 wit the family. its a MANS movie. its also weird that terminator is what i parents watched on dates. it wuz enevitable that we would watch t3 and im assuming t4 =D oh yea i kno i said id update... but i cant think of anything... maybe after atlantis ill be inspired

2003-07-10T08:36:00.000-07:00

::what is this song::

You know when you feel it

You Know when it hits you

There is no mistaking when you fall

You do not anticipate

You can not calculate it

It jus comes crashing through your walls

I love you till till the sky falls down

I love you till i cant feel anything, anything at all

Even when your not around

I love you till the sky falls down

I'm flying till I hit the ground

I'm flying but i dont feel anything, anything at all

Even when your not around

I love you till the sky falls down

You lose all sense of reason

You have no sense of danger

Its like your living in a dream

It lets you float through clouds

Makes you smile at strangers

Its just the greatest day of the year

I love you till the sky falls down

I love you till I cant feel anything, anything at all

Even when your not around

I love you till the sky falls down

I'm flying till I hit the ground

I'm flying and I dont feel anything, anything at all

Even when your not around

I love you till the sky falls down.....

2003-07-09T12:53:00.000-07:00

i thought of something

To-Do list

find-a-ride for atlantis
find-my-pills for atlantis
work out for atlantis
take vitamin c until atlantis

find a job next week
start work on project ivi

2003-07-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

today i will use this yellow thats been on my head

well today was ok. i woke up early to get shit wit evc done. will pay classes off tomorow, or today... wutever. didnt get much sleep. the money my family saved for community college instead of sjsu will go to my car. so hopefully full body kit once i find a good price. im thinkin buddy club 2 fb, black widow skirts and rear, and change all the black trims to white. that should be fun. probably squeeze in sum rims too. well other than that, expect a major revision on this blog as im gettin tired of the look. well until i think of shit... latez. oh wait. i bought my atlantis ticket. WHOO!

2003-07-05T19:58:00.000-07:00

"no really i just wanna go home....."

well july four wuznt that bad. well the family went to the park... its an old childhood park that has lots of white people n azns that can only send me to jail. me n my dad played badminton for a while thats when i realized... im getting old. LOL. i almost smacked like four white folk.. and to be honest i wouldnt have minded if i really did hit em. ok anyway firework show... to watch fireworks u either have to be on sum thing or have a girl. because if not it gets boring and really lonely. u go into deep thought bout past relationships. well i tried getting out of that show so i can hit up vinces last party. so drove to boners house and call vince up. wen i got there, vince wuz already fuuuuucked. on the fone he wuz like "trick?! ur here OH SHIT DOOD TRICKS HERE GUYS!!! OH SHIT HURRY UP!" lol, wow made me feel like the life of the party for them two secs. well we brought phoenix out and tore that shit up! we filled it up wit mgd instead of water and that shit fucked us like virgins to smoking. took sum shots of vodka because i kno it would happen. i honestly can say thats the most high ive been. then everyone has fireworks and we were jumpin sum of em. then fuckin patrick took the firework and started running around crazy wit that shit. LOL! i swear thats the most fucked up ive seen patrick. then vince wuz being an idiot. "Real TV material right here" Vince wuz gone..... and started spewin... its all good vince... i kno how u feel. got sum duels in being high. i have this feeling i had a cocky attitude like pegasus. haha. after that i started soberin up. left at sumtime and dropped brian home. haha i felt hella good getting home... like "safe!" because heading home i saw two cops pulling over this one guy. and it being fourth of july and i was under the influence.

post fouth of july.. or if u wanna be an ass, july fifth

did i mention i fell asleep at 330 and woke up at 630?! tell me why the fuck u wake at 630 to go to six flags marine world. baka~sama. got ready fell asleep. got into car fell asleep. arrived at marine.. no i didnt fall asleep. weather was actually manageable. Rode madusa 2x then zonga. uh i dont really recommend it. my head kept bashing side to side. amber got a fat headache then that pretty much killed all plans. for sum reason the rides at six flags doesnt seem to all operate at one time. i dont care. it trully jus felt like i wuz in g.a. there wuz nothing there that would not send me to jail. so all i can think of is one girl? weiRd! and i met this girl at the last party. everyone felt like shit. i really just wanted to go home. now im back home. bout to sign off so aaron can use the park map to build his own park wit the same rides. fuckers a genious. i never woulda thought of that. llllllllllllatez

2003-07-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

yo guys whats up... jus sayin early happy fourth of july. let there be lots and lots of unprotected sex. If you have ne plans hit me up on my moms cell 7680805. until then pardy harty

2003-07-01T23:07:00.000-07:00

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2003-07-01T19:13:00.000-07:00

now playing - trance evolution
feeling - relaxed

its a bit early to bitch about the day. but with aaron on the ps2.. geh.. ive decided that no matter how much i wanna go to wish. i cant. i cant sprew up money for both wish and atlantis... and more heads are goin to atlantis so i might as well jus save and party fuckin hard at atlantis... i already kno one person im lookin forward to seeing there ;) i kno ill need a ride, because i dont trust myself driving after a rave... rides should never be a problem though. i kno my doseage is starting to rise but still my count is low... its odd. i remember f8 my roll ended before vince, and vince was rolling for hours.. me on the other hand had like 30 mins of soberility... before i had my other pill. o the fuck well right? haha thats the spirit. oh other things im starting to notice... my brother is slowing following my footsteps... everyday i see him becoming more n more like me... but the things im doing now, he already knows not to do that... im the rolemodel they dont wanan become, they already know that. my bro will. well the days are koo. my sis looks funny wen she sleeps. july 4th.. hmm since im not going to wish.. wut shall i do... blah... fck face drunk is all i can think of. yugioh!!!! ::hums the theme song:: now with that being said, i think each of us "guys" are sumhow related to yugioh.. i hence forth claim my self as yugi moto. why? well i do have buster blader, mirror force which no one i kno closely has except for my bro. and im considered the underdog everyone wants to see at the top. maybe yugis a gemini, come on now, a young self and older self, seems like a gemini... now chris is joey... why? cuz hes a cocky bastard uh no offense chris, k.chris claims to be pegasus, but he isnt cool enough to be pegasus, actually no one is, emil got us into it, and hes always been my "rival" so henceforth hes kaiba.. vince, bandit keith, i kno u dotn run machine but i can see u wearing the usa bandana LOL. travolta... hes tall so id say jinzo, but jinzo isnt a duelist so probably sum tall guy introduced in the next season, brian is probably marik, i can see him controlling other peeps with his sadistic laugh lol. ok i said enough i can feel that sumone is gonna challenge me to a duel now...

2003-07-01T00:59:00.000-07:00

now playing - modjo/lady

jus worked on sum minor updates. eh i still am not happy with it. post yer comments.... latezzzzz

2003-06-30T19:22:00.000-07:00

alrite everything online is down for sum stupid ass reason. oh well. my xanga got slapped wit gay and i cant change it. more people go here anyway. well its cooled off since the major heat wave thing. so ive been gettin better sleep. i have my cell and net back. except the cell i have to give to my dad at 11ish becuz theyre afraid that the van is in bad shape. im expecting new cars soon. wit that been said, im lookin forward to wish. hopefully its in the bay area. bcuz it might be my last rave for a bit... iono bout atlanits jus yet.. becuz of money. plus theres not much thats making me want to go. they gotta book fuckin nuclear hyde for a massive... that will blow your fuckin mind! yes im reminising again but hey can u blame me. id post pix up but everythign is down. oh well. "WISH!" wild weekend in...4 days.. encounting

2003-06-27T14:12:00.000-07:00

haha alritey.. a hot summers day... yes... hmm... its hot, im reminising bout f8. i saw the pix... god damn incriminating... haha quote of the day
ill call my homeboy Mr.V
Mr.V"remember this day trick JANUARY 19th 2003..."
Trick"o.O! uh ~~vince~~Mr.V its june! i should know my bday wuz two days ago."
Mr.V"really?!"
Trick"yeah sorry i didnt wanna kill ur speech and all"
Mr.V and Trick"HAHAHAHuoiuafafduafijagiya87js"

2003-06-26T11:43:00.000-07:00

wow. this new blog format looks really nice... fuck xanga... what a waste i made xanga for nothing... oh well, check either one... ill be xlogin a lot... blog/xanga

2003-06-24T12:59:00.000-07:00

aite guys uh.... cuz of sat i dont have my cell and dont have internet access at home... so it might be hard contacting me. if your lucky try callin my house 4082749169 if u really need to get me. ill tell u wen i get my fone and net back... or u can leave a msg on my guestbook? yea i think thats the word.. "yeah"...

2003-06-18T22:35:00.000-07:00

a great day

well today i slept till one... i watched my bird george for awhile.. he loves his sunflower seeds... he can eat em for an hour, believe i watched.. its cute cuz he gets all chubby n fat. well jus fluffy and fat. its cute and then wen he walks around his cage, he looks like a tiny dinosaur... i wuz gonna post a pix of him but i have seem to lost it... well tomorow is the day... D-Day

2003-06-15T23:03:00.000-07:00

saturday - adventure day
today - fathers day
tomorow - chill day
tuesday - my bday

wow yesterday wuz weiRD?! o.O. i went to emils party for a while, got sum duels, hella watermelon, vince also gave me a call to hit up a party... so then we went... we spent hours lookin for it... we encountered bambi.... the owl from harry potter and as vince said it "Dood i feel like im in that initial d game".... yes lots of driving... imagine us lost.... n for sum odd reason "Do you hear me now? and instead of "Goooooood." u get "No Service." damn... so we were in the vastness of giving up... we stop over... and see vinces step bro.... we then jus followed him... even though there wuz no party its ok... because mission accomplished

2003-06-11T00:16:00.000-07:00

ok this is the most ive ever posted on my blog in one day... here we have me, sumone who can write because i proved it and passed, but because my mind set isnt there yet... i get dicked and "disqualified" from state... u then have emil who tries hard but because a person doesnt believe he wrote a 4 he's suspended... and then u have travolta smart ass hell... get suspended because he cant write.... WTF!!!!!!! i passed my class yet i dont receive credit for it? tomorow is gonna be a buzy day, returning apps, visiting malls n friends... CONGRATS to the class of 03... it feels damn good to get out of high school... but be prepared, college is a whole new deal... im the rolemodel on what you "dont" wanna be... EVC or West Valley, here i come... on the plus side i added buster to my site... LOL

2003-06-10T20:38:00.000-07:00

even if i passed the stupid lld test look at what i get

San Jos� State University Course Information
Bautista, Patrick Allen

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Spring 2003
Current Program: BS Computer Engineering Class: Freshman
Residency: RM NCAA: EOP: Spec Program:
Academic Standing: Disqualified

COMM-020 -08 D+
HUP -046A-01 B
MATH-019 -10 F
LLD -002 -08 CR
WOMS-010 -01 B

Disqualified... state gots sum fucked up shit goin on

2003-06-10T14:26:00.000-07:00

frailarts been pissin me off, thats the only update, i wonder why my mom hates toilet paper roll on the floor... i really dont get it...

2003-06-04T12:44:00.000-07:00

this kinda made my day

DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:31:43 PM): u know how she looks right
elementliquidx 2 (12:31:59 PM): yea
elementliquidx 2 (12:32:03 PM): i have a thing wit chinks
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:32:25 PM): heheh
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:32:46 PM): well actual;ly shes halfd chinese n filipino
elementliquidx 2 (12:32:56 PM): haha even better
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:32:58 PM): AAND I KNOW SHE'LL LYK U TO
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:33:00 PM): HEHE
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:33:04 PM): UR PRETTY FINE U KNOW?
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:33:05 PM): Y?
elementliquidx 2 (12:33:41 PM): im fine?
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:34:13 PM): HELL YEH..
elementliquidx 2 (12:34:34 PM): really?
DEViNECaTHoLiC18 (12:35:02 PM): YES
elementliquidx 2 (12:35:22 PM): thanx
elementliquidx 2 (12:35:25 PM): heh kool

then for reassurance
elementliquidx 2 (12:34:31 PM): uh tai? am i "fine"?
elementliquidx 2 (12:35:54 PM): o_O
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:36:02 PM): huh?
elementliquidx 2 (12:36:16 PM): do u think i look "fine"?
elementliquidx 2 (12:36:18 PM): like
elementliquidx 2 (12:36:22 PM): damn u hella fine
elementliquidx 2 (12:36:27 PM): o_O
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:37:02 PM): want the truth?
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:37:04 PM): hehe
elementliquidx 2 (12:37:06 PM): yea
elementliquidx 2 (12:37:10 PM): cuz uh my friend jus told me that
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:37:17 PM): for reals?
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:37:19 PM): guy or girl/
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:37:20 PM): lol
elementliquidx 2 (12:37:26 PM): girl
elementliquidx 2 (12:37:29 PM): -_-
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:38:24 PM): hehe
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:38:27 PM): ur cute
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:38:40 PM): when you dress up its like whoa
elementliquidx 2 (12:38:40 PM): k
elementliquidx 2 (12:38:44 PM): haha
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:38:45 PM): u know
xXmSsUnkisSedXx (12:38:53 PM): yeah

so yea... kool.

2003-06-03T00:36:00.000-07:00

tuesday.... a revision not fully complete

i will fully re do this blog wen frailart is done with its revision... on my mind? fuck.. its hot, im lonely, its been six months, i need a job, i have a dope idea for a photoshop... i had so much i wanted to say... i forgot it though eh...

2003-06-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

yea it aint monday but wutever...

family party today made me realize my age.... youngest of the older generation, oldest of the younger... gye.. damn it sux... food wuz dope... the bbq at petes wuz dope... i got home but thunk jus bout... my "love" life... its summer n shit should be crakn, but eh. i miss my couch... i miss holding a girl...gye... wutever... i dont want this shit out in the public... it mite come back to haunt me or sumshit...
~fin

2003-05-30T14:23:00.000-07:00

update on mon... that is all

2003-05-25T09:48:00.000-07:00

post-popsikle

oh.... im chillen at vinces, the party wuz dope except all girls were taken... either guy or girl, it shoulda been at the bill grahm security really wuznt that good. i had a really good roll. saw people i didnt expect to see so it wuz all good. i hope to break that etard cycle.... i felt down wen i had to get sumthin to chew on... i never found crysal, i looked so hard to find her and i didnt... ah... well i feel like shit... so ill talk bout this later...

(cont at my house)
ok back at home... i kinda got better but not 100%... wen i sleep all i dreamt bout wuz trance... n blah... i had a 30 min lightshow thing... and only got two hours of sleep... ill prolly be out by 9... ill see if ill do that thing wit chris.... eh wutever... yea i kinda updated the blog... KINDA

2003-05-20T22:28:00.000-07:00

smallville...

doh.... my head hurts, i want kristen even more... im horny.. blah...

2003-05-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

thoughts that relate yugioh to life

In life you will face many battles. Some of these battles might be between yourself and some might be with friends, family or even complete strangers. In life you build your defenses hoping to stop your opponent and over come them with a stronger card. But they have a trap waiting for you. You look to see if you can stop it but you cant. In an instant your friend could have his heart changed and hurt you. You hope that the next day will be better but as that day progress you realize that the card isnt coming up. You get something to destroy all of their traps... but yet again it is contered back at you. The more cards you draw, the closer you are to that one card. YOU HAVE THAT CARD!!! You hold it thinking no, I'll wait for the right time to do this. So you wait for the perfect time. Only to find out that turn was the perfect turn to do it, and you didnt. Your opponent goes for your weakest link, knowing attacking that will severly hurt you. But before that he makes it more damaging by upgrading his strength. You have one last trap for him to fall into and then.... he distroys it... You are vulnerable to his attack.... you have nothing you can do... and then you lose. You waited too long... and now all you can do is think about the duel... over and over in your head... The perfect time to have played it was any chance you get. Dont hold back... Because the card that you hold isnt useful until its been played...If you always wait for the perfect time, you become blind to when you should really.... activate this card.

2003-05-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

Greatest day ever

Woke up, couldnt find my dark blue shirt.. so i find this one shirt i never saw in my life.... it wuznt as wut i thought...but the color isnt bad... so i wear it go to school... chris will be a bit late cuz he has to pick up travolta... got to school.... did my notecards.. went to comm.. presented my speech which wuz more than 7 mins...i feel i did good... then went straight to practice...after that we taught the girls... and in an hour we got the girls memorized it.. crazy... i didnt think we were gona pull it off, but we did... and it wuz dope... we were group six... so we figured we had six acts before us... but joelle wuz like one?....? two?...? and in my head i thought aw shit were goin next... and i wuz rite... so we did it.. i heard it looked koo, so yet again we set the standard... but it feels good, the adrenaline, the passion, its like a natural high... then we watch everyone else and its koo... we then buy slurpees...we celebrated by goin to stoneridge..on the way to stonerige at the school elevator right wen we the doors open... ::door opens with smoke::the most beautifulest azn girl then head to stoneridge... then stole two booster boxes wit goin to the store twice... then in the box i chose i pulled... swords again! raigeki again! and what what.."EXODIA THE FORBIDDEN ONE" haha fuckin exodias head... so we go to westgate.. trade my cards.. got hella good cards... go back to school from westgate... like we walk to this one car, and his cars kit looks like mine.. and then the guy pulls out... and this cute girl is waiting for the space.. and then the guy STALLS... aww... wen the girl parks shes hella laughin then she turns and im smiling in her and has this flattered look.. damn shoulda spat game..went back.. get close to door parking...got to level 7 in tekken 4..played cards.. got sum lucky hands won.. sorry its long it wuz a good day... after that we got killed at the gym.. hehe ~end

2003-05-03T18:37:00.000-07:00

the cone wuz by itself and didnt have friends, it fell over the night warning people not to go on the stairs

here a handsome young gentlemen sees the cone in its pain and trys to ease its pain

here the young lad seduces the cone... and off they go... to make more... baby cones...

I WUZ FUCKIN BORED... i have an obsession wit orange cones...

2003-04-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

phoenix...( theres only one person in the world who knows wut im talkin bout)

Natalise - Love goes on (break beat rmx)

well this weekend wuznt one of my funnest.... i went to a picnic... theres missing parts, u need it, ask me personally, but if u dont care, i dont either, friday i chilled wit crys' friends, it wuz fun... uh if jay or laydee ever reads this, u guys are hot lol... friday wuz fun cuz i watched identity... real good, sat NITE wuz fun... uh sun wuz church wit girls jockin, aint shiet but i feel like i gotta update everything today.. aite... latez for another two weeks

2003-04-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

neglected bLog
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jus like a bong, if it is neglected, itll fuck u over... its been over a month, do peeps still read this? we'll wutever, well lots been happenin on the dorky side, my yugioh deck is getting stronger n stronger, soon i will compete in tourneys, theres been partys n i got ko'd aka sarahs n beach. everytime sumthins been neglected, it always comes back wit a punch. like the mysterious gotta get through this ringtone, that only a few girls have on my fone... its like wen u hear it, everything stops, everyone looks like... "WTF!!! never heard that before" i learned to respect parents a bit more, but my college life is in jeopardy cuz of grades.. time to fuckin stop slackin off... also, crys will be starting a new trend, she brought her hamster to the mall, OMG it wuz hella cute, alot of attention, n wen everyone starts to do it, u kno she started it, thats my homegirl wit her hamster n her cap ^_^ theres nothing really to talk about, if u chat wit me, ur pretty updated... aite till... next time payce

2003-03-17T23:24:00.000-08:00

stupid monday

it wuz looking bad, then i stole a pegasus and joey deck.... then its all good.. that is all

2003-03-12T22:08:00.000-08:00

sexieful weds.

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alrite highlight of the day, we did our tango routine n owned it! we made everyone look bad n set an impossible high standard by going first.... SUCKA! the feeling wuz great... second highlight, i injured chris' right arm for awhile, thatll teach u... DONT DO IT AGAIN! itll hurt more. ::cackles::

2003-03-10T23:51:00.000-08:00

pajama monday

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for those who still read this, the only big thing to happen, was getting JEFF GARCIA"S autograph! wut sucka! that is all. (ill post pix once i get my memory card back OR scanner fixed)

2003-03-04T22:42:00.000-08:00

PHAT tuesday

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fuck this, todays not a good day, wutever, ok i found out birdy wuz the chick selling water next to the trance room in metro. i got my barrel gipped, n were givin up yugioh for lent.... 40 days.... starting at 1230 tomorow, bcuz of mass =p, emils givin up GIRLS period, chis is givin up BEIN A CHICKEN, im givin up stoges n try in to cut down on weed, travolta is to save money... joy.... hey at least it isnt porn...