OH MY FAWKIIINGGGG GAWWWD!!!!!!!!
our new frige was supposed to come in monday last week... the company fucked up and we dont get our frige till today... the lowes truck finally comes in. but guess what! the fuckin frige is TORE up! omFG! and my mom didnt even raise her voice. that pisses me off! it took us 2 n half weeks to get a tore up frige... then to wait another fuckin week for a replacement! wtf! mom shiet.... its tore tore tore tore..... fuckin it was already theyre bad for the delay and to get a scratched up frige after that fuckin wait n jus to wait again for a new one! WHAT THE FUCK MOM! out of all the people i had the most angriest voice... and a "sos" replacement is still gonna take a week. OMG.... that shit should be here monday at the latest for theyre bad! fuuuuuucccck... im soo heated... im glad tonite will be the nite GUARRRRRR... we all deserve to get a bit crunk tonite but plans change.. that sucks... great another lonely crappy weekend.
its ranting time. i hate it how i get short dicked out of things me n rona can do. family will always be infront of me. theres things i wanna do. its event slike this that makes me wish i didnt have sooo much fucking time on my hands. even with a girlfriend this summer, its still has been a weak ass summer. things that should of happened but didnt. sometimes it makes ME doubt the relationship... imagine that.. ME out of all people...right now i dont kno what to think... frige got fucked, now possibly no clubbing. akajdsfafjlalksdfjwerlk;zdx tomorow bonfante... eh.... i hate this shiet. why why the fuck this shiet... i hate this... i really fucking do.
so i figure EVERYONE reads my xanga now, its jus more convient, and i like it a lot more than my blog. but yeah my lifes been getting better. everything is clicking. so yeah. i wana visit sjsu, but i have one more suprise in store before i do it. emil dont trip bout earlier. chillin wit the evc group wuz great. i want jenns type r, jenn if u die... its not my bad. i jus get your car. cant u pretend u die so i get ur car.. and then ur still alive? like 2pac? ^_^. well im happy, i got TONS of homework to do that imma procrastinate on cuz i really jus wanna talk to rona. but its good, im going to school. so yeah. =p eh latez.
| trick | 12:49 AM >>?<< | __________________________
| 11.07.2003 |
-| nite at tite |-
got a speeding ticket in the morning. ate at elephant bar for lunch. emil drove maries car. emil needs a car. he looked cool driving maries car. me n rona fell asleep on the way home. it was cute. ronas cute. i like rona. now all the lil girlies other than rona are crying away because lil patrick is finally mite have found someone. patrick is happy. rona makes patrick happy. therefor ice cream fixes everything. i am not a cow.
| trick | 12:27 AM >>?<< | __________________________
| 11.05.2003 |
-| letting go |-
whenever someone is bonded to something so much they shut out the good thats supposed to go in. for me pursuing something i couldnt have, i closed everything else that coulda have came in. well dropping taht ive found sumone a lot better. its great. things are finally going my way for once. if ur reading this rona. u make me happy =D its always fun wen ur around. well for ivi status. she now is zigen_buddy_ivi. toby was mad cuz his old exhaust sounds kinda louder than his new n1. but the n1 setup looks nicer than mine. either way its good shit. i love ivi. oooooh everylil thing about her i love. same wit her. every lil thing she does makes me smile ^_^
"nothin last for ever im sorry i cant be perfect and its just too late, and we cant go back, im sorry i cant be perfect......"
yes new song. everyone likes this for sumreason but yet i do too. today wuz soooo much fun. the dentist part suck and tell me how i dont scrap the dip to orchard.. but i scrape my driveway.. doh! oh well. chilin wit jenn emil n rona wuz like the best. i thought it would be awkward but it wuz hella fun. uhm thats all. oh exhaust tomorow i hope. ^_^ whee.
my whole lifes been filled wit shit. i jus realized that. growing up, i wuz always punked. highschool i had bad shit. college is bad shit. now its bad shit. come on trick seriously. u fall for a girl that has a boi?! u fall for a girl thats about to move back to tracy?! how come jimmy has a girl. how come emil works more than me and he has no car and i need the money more? why do i always get dicked in the littlest ways. how come i requested a day off and i got work that day. truly does no one care about me. WTF! forget today live tomorow. tomorow is jus gonna be the same bullshit. im thinkin im a great friend and all. drive emil everywere not askin nethin in return. secretly bring my sis to the dances so she can have her fun. my lifes just a bitch. whats the worst that can happen. i die. so in any sense nothing can be worse than that. i hate how at raves girls fuck wit my head. i hate how girls check me out and there boi is right there. i hate pretty girls wit butt ugly guys. i hate people who wont drop stupid shit. i hate wasting gas. i hate being single. i hate the fact all the good girls are wit the bad guys. i hate how i fall for the wrong girls. i hate the fact im so giving wit my trust. i hate myself. i hate what i see in the mirror. for ONCE i wish things would go my way. do they ever. no. maybe for a day. then that day is a day at the beach that you dont want to end. then its a stroll in hell for another 30 days. maybe if i align myself wit the devil things will go my way. hey... im down foo. come make my life better. im not bitching or complaining. i just told you my life story. dont be a fuckin hater.
| trick | 12:12 AM >>?<< | __________________________
